Post by Shadowstar on Sept 25, 2007 11:28:09 GMT -5
Title:Why me?
Chapters:One shot
Author:Shadowstar
Pairing: HollyxBerry, LionxHazel, JayxCinder
Rating:PG
Spoilers:The Sight
Summary:Jaypaw's feelings about being blind
Warning:
Disclaimer:I do not own warriors, nor claim too, because if I did, Graystripe would still be deputy
When I first opened my eyes, I couldn't see. Everything was a blur. Mother said that I probably would be able to see in a few days. But I sensed her worry, and Leafpool's. In a few days, I found that I was right. It didn't get better, it only got worse. All the other cats looked at me, I knew because I could feel waves of sympathy coming off them. I didn't want sympathy! I wanted sight! I found that I was able to see in my dreams, not much, but enough. But that wasn't enough for me. I wanted my sight, like my brother and sister, Lionkit and Hollykit!
I'm finally becoming an apprentice. I still feel their sympathy, like they think I won't ever be a warrior. But I'll prove them wrong when I become the strongest warrior in the forest! But out of all the cats in the whole of ThunderClan, my mentor was Brightheart! Why couldn't Firestar choose a normal warrior for my apprenticeship! Hollypaw is Leafpool's apprentice, and Lionpaw got Ashfur. But me? I got Brightheart! I hate being blind! Plus, Hollypaw and Lionpaw already have cats who like them, possible future mates. Even though Hollypaw can't have a mate, she still has someone. But me? No one. Berrypaw likes Hollypaw. Lionpaw anmd Hazelpaw? They might have futures. But I'm probably going to be an apprentice even when they are full-grown warriors! It isn't fair. Plus, Leafpool says I should become her apprentice. No way! Being stuck in the medicine den treating injured cats all day! That isn't any life!
Spottedleaf told me in a dream that being Leafpool's apprentice was my destiny, and that I had to accept it. But I didn't want to accept it! It was dumb, that when my brothers and sisters got to choose their futures, I had to go by StarClan's will! I would hate the medicine den, hate treating injured cats all day and night, having no freedom except when out to collect herbs! But eventually, StarClan wouldn't give up, and I went to Leafpool. I apologized to my sister for stealing her spot as medicine cat, but found that she wanted to be a warrior. I thought that Brightheart might mentor her, since I had become Leafpool's apprentice, but she got Brackenfur! It isn't fair!
Cinderpaw fell out of a tree today, when Mousepaw got stuck, she tried to help him, and fell. She can barely breath, her leg is twisted oddly, and Leafpool says she might die. I can't help but feel a little sorry for her. I don't know why, but I really hope she doesn't die. I don't know why I feel this way though. Leafpool keeps looking at me weird whenever I'm near her, and keeps reminding me that medicine cats can't have mates. I tell her I know that, and ask her why shes making a fuss, but she doesn't answer. I stay near Cinderpaw alot, watching her breathing, and hoping she pulls through...
Cinderpaw is awake! I was keeping my daily vigil, while Leafpool was out collecting herbs, when her eyes opened. While waiting for Leafpool to get back, we talked for a long time. She told me that she thinks she will never be a warrior, and that she knows how I must feel, stuck in the medicine den from dawn until dusk every day. Now I know what Leafpool meant when she kept telling me medicine cats could never choose a mate. I think I love Cinderpaw, but I can never love her truly, we can never have kits. I look to the stars, to see them shining high in the sky, totally oblivious to what is going on around them. Why me?
Chapters:One shot
Author:Shadowstar
Pairing: HollyxBerry, LionxHazel, JayxCinder
Rating:PG
Spoilers:The Sight
Summary:Jaypaw's feelings about being blind
Warning:
Disclaimer:I do not own warriors, nor claim too, because if I did, Graystripe would still be deputy
When I first opened my eyes, I couldn't see. Everything was a blur. Mother said that I probably would be able to see in a few days. But I sensed her worry, and Leafpool's. In a few days, I found that I was right. It didn't get better, it only got worse. All the other cats looked at me, I knew because I could feel waves of sympathy coming off them. I didn't want sympathy! I wanted sight! I found that I was able to see in my dreams, not much, but enough. But that wasn't enough for me. I wanted my sight, like my brother and sister, Lionkit and Hollykit!
I'm finally becoming an apprentice. I still feel their sympathy, like they think I won't ever be a warrior. But I'll prove them wrong when I become the strongest warrior in the forest! But out of all the cats in the whole of ThunderClan, my mentor was Brightheart! Why couldn't Firestar choose a normal warrior for my apprenticeship! Hollypaw is Leafpool's apprentice, and Lionpaw got Ashfur. But me? I got Brightheart! I hate being blind! Plus, Hollypaw and Lionpaw already have cats who like them, possible future mates. Even though Hollypaw can't have a mate, she still has someone. But me? No one. Berrypaw likes Hollypaw. Lionpaw anmd Hazelpaw? They might have futures. But I'm probably going to be an apprentice even when they are full-grown warriors! It isn't fair. Plus, Leafpool says I should become her apprentice. No way! Being stuck in the medicine den treating injured cats all day! That isn't any life!
Spottedleaf told me in a dream that being Leafpool's apprentice was my destiny, and that I had to accept it. But I didn't want to accept it! It was dumb, that when my brothers and sisters got to choose their futures, I had to go by StarClan's will! I would hate the medicine den, hate treating injured cats all day and night, having no freedom except when out to collect herbs! But eventually, StarClan wouldn't give up, and I went to Leafpool. I apologized to my sister for stealing her spot as medicine cat, but found that she wanted to be a warrior. I thought that Brightheart might mentor her, since I had become Leafpool's apprentice, but she got Brackenfur! It isn't fair!
Cinderpaw fell out of a tree today, when Mousepaw got stuck, she tried to help him, and fell. She can barely breath, her leg is twisted oddly, and Leafpool says she might die. I can't help but feel a little sorry for her. I don't know why, but I really hope she doesn't die. I don't know why I feel this way though. Leafpool keeps looking at me weird whenever I'm near her, and keeps reminding me that medicine cats can't have mates. I tell her I know that, and ask her why shes making a fuss, but she doesn't answer. I stay near Cinderpaw alot, watching her breathing, and hoping she pulls through...
Cinderpaw is awake! I was keeping my daily vigil, while Leafpool was out collecting herbs, when her eyes opened. While waiting for Leafpool to get back, we talked for a long time. She told me that she thinks she will never be a warrior, and that she knows how I must feel, stuck in the medicine den from dawn until dusk every day. Now I know what Leafpool meant when she kept telling me medicine cats could never choose a mate. I think I love Cinderpaw, but I can never love her truly, we can never have kits. I look to the stars, to see them shining high in the sky, totally oblivious to what is going on around them. Why me?
